Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Sunday, June 19, 2011
of needless emotions.
i found out today that lotsa juniors were annoyed with the stethoscope status i put on fb in april. long time ago weyh. gile outdated. haha.
basically i said something about ppl parading stethoscope around the neck in college and hospital. i wasn't referring to anyone in particular, but i guess they had had too much chilli in their meal.
chronologically it happened this way:
1.i saw some ppl on fb posting pictures with stethoscope on neck,
2.it reminded me of a few fellas who really like parading around stethoscope/ lab coats/ scrubs/ etc wherever they go,
3.hence the remark.
so basically, these juniors had their photoshoot session that day, so maybe they like flaunting stethoscope in pic, which i don't give a crap about lah. i see nothing wrong with taking pictures with stethoscope.
and and i was saying it in a joking manner. why were people annoyed then? hahaha.
i found out they were saying that we're immature la, this la that la. i dunno whether those were referring to me or the comments below the status.
but my point is, that's the problem with people nowadays.
someone makes a remark, and suddenly it's about them.
somehow innocent remarks can become offensive, racist, sexist, politically incorrect, etc.
why eh?
why can't people just stop and say, 'he's referring to other people kot?'
or maybe, 'let him speak his mind, he might have a point somewhere.'
i guess we all must learn to be less emotional.
this feeling was priceless.
basically i said something about ppl parading stethoscope around the neck in college and hospital. i wasn't referring to anyone in particular, but i guess they had had too much chilli in their meal.
chronologically it happened this way:
1.i saw some ppl on fb posting pictures with stethoscope on neck,
2.it reminded me of a few fellas who really like parading around stethoscope/ lab coats/ scrubs/ etc wherever they go,
3.hence the remark.
so basically, these juniors had their photoshoot session that day, so maybe they like flaunting stethoscope in pic, which i don't give a crap about lah. i see nothing wrong with taking pictures with stethoscope.
and and i was saying it in a joking manner. why were people annoyed then? hahaha.
i found out they were saying that we're immature la, this la that la. i dunno whether those were referring to me or the comments below the status.
but my point is, that's the problem with people nowadays.
someone makes a remark, and suddenly it's about them.
somehow innocent remarks can become offensive, racist, sexist, politically incorrect, etc.
why eh?
why can't people just stop and say, 'he's referring to other people kot?'
or maybe, 'let him speak his mind, he might have a point somewhere.'
i guess we all must learn to be less emotional.
this feeling was priceless. Sunday, June 12, 2011
taiping oh taiping!
the problem with some individual is, they think what they are what they are not.
for example. you say you're open minded but when someone states their opinion, you say it's old fashioned, obsolete and too conservative. so are you open minded?
how about, saying you're not a hypocrite, but jump to another clique the moment you have an exaggerated argument with your friend, and suddenly starting talking, dressing, and walking like the people you bitched about regularly i.e. the new clique. so aren't you a hypocrite?
that's why i think that you shouldn't say, "i'm a [adjective] guy."
we should always be humble and say, "i think i'm usually a [adjective] guy."
it applies when we talk about people too. who are we to label people this and that? immigrations? haha.
at the moment i'm kinda pissed off with people who creates unnecessary tension between people. it's so irksome to see that their problems could be solved with a simple toning down of ego. alpha females la these few girls. kepala macam batu.
so i was in taiping for 2 weeks. quite a nice town.
i realized that even though i still want to do medic, i'm totally and utterly bored out of my mind with this life. i feel really burnt out with college. really looking forward to electives next year.
random kellie's castle and lumut trip with two cuties =]
for example. you say you're open minded but when someone states their opinion, you say it's old fashioned, obsolete and too conservative. so are you open minded?
how about, saying you're not a hypocrite, but jump to another clique the moment you have an exaggerated argument with your friend, and suddenly starting talking, dressing, and walking like the people you bitched about regularly i.e. the new clique. so aren't you a hypocrite?
that's why i think that you shouldn't say, "i'm a [adjective] guy."
we should always be humble and say, "i think i'm usually a [adjective] guy."
it applies when we talk about people too. who are we to label people this and that? immigrations? haha.
at the moment i'm kinda pissed off with people who creates unnecessary tension between people. it's so irksome to see that their problems could be solved with a simple toning down of ego. alpha females la these few girls. kepala macam batu.
so i was in taiping for 2 weeks. quite a nice town.
i realized that even though i still want to do medic, i'm totally and utterly bored out of my mind with this life. i feel really burnt out with college. really looking forward to electives next year.
random kellie's castle and lumut trip with two cuties =]Tuesday, May 17, 2011
i want iPad =[
i don't really like techy stuff but these days i find it really useful. teringin ipad la. i don't know whether it's nafsu or a genuine need to have something new to motivate me to study. i'll find out after i get one la.
but where to get the money??!!!
i really hate it when ppl say money isn't everything. those people are either stupid or already have enough money. money isn't worth chasing till you ignore family and all la, but it's still very very important for a happy life.
today was too relaxing. woke up at noon. lunch. ps3. dinner. weather is gloomy the whole day. really needed a day off from hospital. on monday, was in the hospital from 630am till 5pm. so tiring.
i just found out someone in my batch has a breast lump. getting it checked soon. good thing is it's painful so most probably not malignant.
to think about it, at this point, you'd realize that some people will have all this diseases that only close friends know. in college, there's breast lump la, PCOS la, bipolar la, chronic migraine la, chronic tonsilitis, uterine cyst..... all close friends. how abt those not close to me? there's bound to be many other people with health problems.
seeing how diseases affect people really makes me wanna be a good doctor.
hence i want an iPad. haha.
isn't she cute?
but where to get the money??!!!
i really hate it when ppl say money isn't everything. those people are either stupid or already have enough money. money isn't worth chasing till you ignore family and all la, but it's still very very important for a happy life.
today was too relaxing. woke up at noon. lunch. ps3. dinner. weather is gloomy the whole day. really needed a day off from hospital. on monday, was in the hospital from 630am till 5pm. so tiring.
i just found out someone in my batch has a breast lump. getting it checked soon. good thing is it's painful so most probably not malignant.
to think about it, at this point, you'd realize that some people will have all this diseases that only close friends know. in college, there's breast lump la, PCOS la, bipolar la, chronic migraine la, chronic tonsilitis, uterine cyst..... all close friends. how abt those not close to me? there's bound to be many other people with health problems.
seeing how diseases affect people really makes me wanna be a good doctor.
hence i want an iPad. haha.
isn't she cute? Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
sometimes...
you forget. nuff said.
i really don't like it when people speak out of place and embarrass other people in public. anything that can be done discreetly must be done so.
happened to me once last year when i was organising a badminton event for class.
but then sometimes when you do things you don't like to other ppl, don't hesitate to say sorry. today, out of frustration, i hurt someone's feelings with words that i admit would hurt me too if they were directed to me.
i apologized.
i feel good =]
i like it when you can talk things through with people. at this age, i guess diplomacy is usually then best solution, provided that someone is mature and open minded to your explanation.
anyway, when i was feeling down due to my stupid action, i just call my best friend and it all feels okay.
14 years and counting, brother.
this morning i had 2 papers for psychiatry. wasn't that bad i think. i don't know why i can never really grasp pharmacology. why laaa must give stupid names for drugs.
i really don't like it when people speak out of place and embarrass other people in public. anything that can be done discreetly must be done so.
happened to me once last year when i was organising a badminton event for class.
but then sometimes when you do things you don't like to other ppl, don't hesitate to say sorry. today, out of frustration, i hurt someone's feelings with words that i admit would hurt me too if they were directed to me.
i apologized.
i feel good =]
i like it when you can talk things through with people. at this age, i guess diplomacy is usually then best solution, provided that someone is mature and open minded to your explanation.
anyway, when i was feeling down due to my stupid action, i just call my best friend and it all feels okay.
14 years and counting, brother. this morning i had 2 papers for psychiatry. wasn't that bad i think. i don't know why i can never really grasp pharmacology. why laaa must give stupid names for drugs.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
lucraby
seriously, if i'm capable financially, i'd go to san diego right now.miss her so much =[
to be honest, i envy ppl who has a productive hobby. what makes it better if their hobby gives them something back in return. like those fellas on youtube that makes videos and get paid for it.
i wish i had a lucrative hobby.
but the thing is, knowing myself, hobby yg tak lucrative pun tak buat2 lagi. haha.
i wish i had a lucrative hobby.
but the thing is, knowing myself, hobby yg tak lucrative pun tak buat2 lagi. haha.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
freeze
it's been quite a frustrating 2 years if i see myself in the academic point of view.
i do care enough to want to be a good doctor, but doing nothing to strive for it.
i see HOs not even knowing what CTG stands for. damn i don't wanna be like that.
i always pressure myself to do things properly when given a job.
but somehow at the moment, the pressure to be a good doctor isn't kicking in.
what kind of motivation do i need?
two days to go for my psychiatry posting exam.
it's nothing significant, but i wish i can take it seriously though.
i remember the times when i studied consistently and exams were so easy.
i don't remember being this lazy =.=
anyway, during MITC posting, luckily my group got the chance to give ATT to school kids.
has it been 5 years since i left school? haha. such a long time!
it was fun talking to kids though.
so at the moment, i like psychiatry, community medicine and teaching.
2 more years, then insyaAllah housemenship.
got a mail from san diego yesterday. liewliew said she was still trying to figure out what she wants to do with her life.
what do you wanna do with your life?
i do care enough to want to be a good doctor, but doing nothing to strive for it.
i see HOs not even knowing what CTG stands for. damn i don't wanna be like that.
i always pressure myself to do things properly when given a job.
but somehow at the moment, the pressure to be a good doctor isn't kicking in.
what kind of motivation do i need?
two days to go for my psychiatry posting exam.
it's nothing significant, but i wish i can take it seriously though.
i remember the times when i studied consistently and exams were so easy.
i don't remember being this lazy =.=
anyway, during MITC posting, luckily my group got the chance to give ATT to school kids.
has it been 5 years since i left school? haha. such a long time!
it was fun talking to kids though.
so at the moment, i like psychiatry, community medicine and teaching.2 more years, then insyaAllah housemenship.
got a mail from san diego yesterday. liewliew said she was still trying to figure out what she wants to do with her life.
what do you wanna do with your life?
Friday, April 22, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
i really need to pee
but i'll write this down 1st. haha.
today sally clerked a patient who had a brain tumor removal operation. he had parkinsonian syndrome, had schizophrenia before the tumor was diagnosed, and now bedridden. he has incontinence but only wants his dad to change the bed sheet for him, hence the thick stench of pee when we were beside him.
situations like this you wouldn't know what to say. numb.
psychiatry exam is around the corner. you wouldn't hear me whine about exams anymore i think. had enough of that already. i just wanna love doing what i do.
talking about love.....
... ..... ......
......
hmmmmm......
i think at the moment, what i think about love is, it's a fairy tale. i realise i love a lot of ppl, with all my heart. i love my family. i love my friends.
but,
i just can't find anyone who can sweep me off my feet. metaphorically.
anyway. pic of the day =]
yes that IS my pee i'm testing. smells like flower okay.
today sally clerked a patient who had a brain tumor removal operation. he had parkinsonian syndrome, had schizophrenia before the tumor was diagnosed, and now bedridden. he has incontinence but only wants his dad to change the bed sheet for him, hence the thick stench of pee when we were beside him.
situations like this you wouldn't know what to say. numb.
psychiatry exam is around the corner. you wouldn't hear me whine about exams anymore i think. had enough of that already. i just wanna love doing what i do.
talking about love.....
... ..... ......
......
hmmmmm......
i think at the moment, what i think about love is, it's a fairy tale. i realise i love a lot of ppl, with all my heart. i love my family. i love my friends.
but,
i just can't find anyone who can sweep me off my feet. metaphorically.
anyway. pic of the day =]
yes that IS my pee i'm testing. smells like flower okay.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Tanjung Piandang '11
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Tuesday, April 19, 2011
after 2 years.
i didn't realize it has been that long. 2 freaking years!! haha. if there's even one soul who still comes back here now and then, i'd be more than flattered. haha.
lotsa new blogsites around now. ppl keep asking me to change. tumblr la, this la that la. but i figure since i don't blog much, why bother.
change. i guess lotsa things have changed compared to 2009. ipoh obviously is more homey now. heck i even tell ppl i'm from ipoh. and technically speaking, when you've stayed here for more than 3 years, this IS your home. some ppl live in the delusion that where their parents live is their home. don't they realize they spend 5/7 of their year in ipoh even if they go back every weekend? haha.
delusions. i am currently in my psychiatric posting. i swear to God anyone can be a psychiatric patient.
all in all, these two years, socially it's been quite fulfilling. academically, quite disappointing.
oh and i'm single! hahaha. so things with liya didn't work out. well. i dunno whether she changed too much or i did. but i guess it's true they said long distance relationship sucks. sucks even more if there's a breakdown in communications. well at least we tried working it out for nearly a year.
lotsa new blogsites around now. ppl keep asking me to change. tumblr la, this la that la. but i figure since i don't blog much, why bother.
change. i guess lotsa things have changed compared to 2009. ipoh obviously is more homey now. heck i even tell ppl i'm from ipoh. and technically speaking, when you've stayed here for more than 3 years, this IS your home. some ppl live in the delusion that where their parents live is their home. don't they realize they spend 5/7 of their year in ipoh even if they go back every weekend? haha.
delusions. i am currently in my psychiatric posting. i swear to God anyone can be a psychiatric patient.
all in all, these two years, socially it's been quite fulfilling. academically, quite disappointing.
oh and i'm single! hahaha. so things with liya didn't work out. well. i dunno whether she changed too much or i did. but i guess it's true they said long distance relationship sucks. sucks even more if there's a breakdown in communications. well at least we tried working it out for nearly a year.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
cracks
the emotional wall i built consistently since 3 years back is cracking bad. there's a module exam tmr yet i'm still......... drowning in an ocean of mixed emotions.
i never failed any exams in my life b4 i think. i have a feeling i'll fail this test. i hope not. but i have a feeling i will.
maybe its because i'm depressed about kak aila's death. but somehow, all those regrets, those heart breaking moments, the annoyance, the anger, the sadness abt everything since highschool till now are intermittently flashing through my mind.
i never failed any exams in my life b4 i think. i have a feeling i'll fail this test. i hope not. but i have a feeling i will.
maybe its because i'm depressed about kak aila's death. but somehow, all those regrets, those heart breaking moments, the annoyance, the anger, the sadness abt everything since highschool till now are intermittently flashing through my mind.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
hiatus
i think i won't be writing much till things in my life becomes more stable...
kak aila passed away a fortnight ago...
i haven't cried for i dunno how many years, but my tears fall freely for you my dear cousin. i love you. i'm angry with myself that i wasn't there when they bury you. i promise i'll visit you soon.
it really surprises me how friends can be so cruel... i've been trying hard to fit in with this crowd in ipoh... but however good i treat ppl, i get shit thrown at me. in my face.
i miss my frens back home...
i find that ppl back home are more sensitive. at least my friends are. ppl here in ipoh just don't give a shit. ppl around me now just hurt feelings and smile abt it. konon la smayang lima waktu tapi prangai dgn manusia terok.
dosa dgn allah boleh diampuni, dosa dgn manusia allah tak ampunkan, org tu sendiri kena maafkan.
reading more news these days kinda agitate me. stupid ppl around the world hurting each others feelings. stupid newspapers reporting it.
did 3 presentations this week. everything went well. but did lose a lot of sleep.
i know that ppl do not represent religion. but the hypocrites around me is making me lose my faith. not the core of it though.
my emotional and mental state is still unstable.
oh and i love katie perry.
edit* KATY perry. haha.
kak aila passed away a fortnight ago...
i haven't cried for i dunno how many years, but my tears fall freely for you my dear cousin. i love you. i'm angry with myself that i wasn't there when they bury you. i promise i'll visit you soon.
it really surprises me how friends can be so cruel... i've been trying hard to fit in with this crowd in ipoh... but however good i treat ppl, i get shit thrown at me. in my face.
i miss my frens back home...
i find that ppl back home are more sensitive. at least my friends are. ppl here in ipoh just don't give a shit. ppl around me now just hurt feelings and smile abt it. konon la smayang lima waktu tapi prangai dgn manusia terok.
dosa dgn allah boleh diampuni, dosa dgn manusia allah tak ampunkan, org tu sendiri kena maafkan.
reading more news these days kinda agitate me. stupid ppl around the world hurting each others feelings. stupid newspapers reporting it.
did 3 presentations this week. everything went well. but did lose a lot of sleep.
i know that ppl do not represent religion. but the hypocrites around me is making me lose my faith. not the core of it though.
my emotional and mental state is still unstable.
oh and i love katie perry.
edit* KATY perry. haha.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
lame is pain.
for the 1st time in my life, being lame has made me hated by ppl!!!!! i'm fucking serious!!!
hahaha... also because i butted in some angry ppl's discussion la. my bad my bad.
story is, right now the 3rd year medical students(my seniors) are in a war of words. cos apparently some got humiliated by some not-so-smart batchmates in front of juniors.
and the funny part is, that war is between the males and the females!!!
what? what is this? highschool??? hahahhaa..
and so they were all using facebook as a medium to taunt each other and all. facebook kan, its a bloody PUBLIC PAGE. so i thought, if them ppl wanna post something, everyone can comment right?
wrong! hahaha... cos what i posted sounds so 'geli' according to some of them. hahahahhaa.... FUNNY SHIT!! this was what i posted.
''take me, to the magic of the moment on a lonely night, where the children of tmr dream awaaaayyy... in the winds of change....
eh. salah post. chillax la wahai kawan2 ku sekalian.
silalah TIDAK bertegur siapa sehingga api kemarahan dua2 pihak sudah reda. itu lah yg sebaiknya.''
its a fucking scorpion song wei!!! and i was being LAME!!
and the reply was:
''cop2..asal tetiba ada parya menyelit..?''
''maksud aku parya yg ntah dtg dari mana2 ntah..bukan batch aku pon..tetibe lak menyelit...''
''haha..sedar pon yg ko tue parya..pukimak hyder parya.. ko jgn nk bajet cool dpn kitorg..jgn nk buat2 kamceng lak..menyebok cm anak haram.. pukimak nyer parya..blah gie mampos...''
''ko ley x kalo nk nyampok pon jgn pos komen yg trhegeh2??? x yah la nk over frenly sgt ye pon..kami (dak boys phs 2) suma bca komen ko pon irritatin la..geli nk mmpos ..pls2''
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA... HILARIOUS!!
1st off, bajet cool?!
2nd, buat2 kamceng?!
3rd, parya?!
4th, GELI??!
hahahahhahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha. i swear to god i'm laughing like mad now.
thus officially,
for the record, i'm used to be hated so i don't really give a damn.
my college is so funny la. hahaha.
nway on a less funny note, i'm supposed to be in class now but i bangun lambat. aiyoyo.
and i'm going to langkawi nxt week. and and.. i have to catch up with studies. and....i'm supposed to pay brendan!
hyder the lame-o :]
hahaha... also because i butted in some angry ppl's discussion la. my bad my bad.
story is, right now the 3rd year medical students(my seniors) are in a war of words. cos apparently some got humiliated by some not-so-smart batchmates in front of juniors.
and the funny part is, that war is between the males and the females!!!
what? what is this? highschool??? hahahhaa..
and so they were all using facebook as a medium to taunt each other and all. facebook kan, its a bloody PUBLIC PAGE. so i thought, if them ppl wanna post something, everyone can comment right?
wrong! hahaha... cos what i posted sounds so 'geli' according to some of them. hahahahhaa.... FUNNY SHIT!! this was what i posted.
''take me, to the magic of the moment on a lonely night, where the children of tmr dream awaaaayyy... in the winds of change....
eh. salah post. chillax la wahai kawan2 ku sekalian.
silalah TIDAK bertegur siapa sehingga api kemarahan dua2 pihak sudah reda. itu lah yg sebaiknya.''
its a fucking scorpion song wei!!! and i was being LAME!!
and the reply was:
''cop2..asal tetiba ada parya menyelit..?''
''maksud aku parya yg ntah dtg dari mana2 ntah..bukan batch aku pon..tetibe lak menyelit...''
''haha..sedar pon yg ko tue parya..pukimak hyder parya.. ko jgn nk bajet cool dpn kitorg..jgn nk buat2 kamceng lak..menyebok cm anak haram.. pukimak nyer parya..blah gie mampos...''
''ko ley x kalo nk nyampok pon jgn pos komen yg trhegeh2??? x yah la nk over frenly sgt ye pon..kami (dak boys phs 2) suma bca komen ko pon irritatin la..geli nk mmpos ..pls2''
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA... HILARIOUS!!
1st off, bajet cool?!
2nd, buat2 kamceng?!
3rd, parya?!
4th, GELI??!
hahahahhahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha. i swear to god i'm laughing like mad now.
thus officially,
being lame has made me hated by, i daresay 20-30 ppl?
cool aye?for the record, i'm used to be hated so i don't really give a damn.
my college is so funny la. hahaha.
nway on a less funny note, i'm supposed to be in class now but i bangun lambat. aiyoyo.
and i'm going to langkawi nxt week. and and.. i have to catch up with studies. and....i'm supposed to pay brendan!
hyder the lame-o :]Tuesday, July 28, 2009
people come, people go
everyone knows that in life some things will eventually fade, replaced by a some other brightness. even stars fade.
the problem is, even if you know and understand and accept the idea that ppl come and go, it's still heartbreaking when it happens.
this is to someone who was practically my life. we were so close i thought we'd stay friends forever. laughing when we're old, thinking abt the younger days. not meeting for a few years but still can converse as if we see each other every day. etc.
how naive i am. i guess things change. if your concept of friendship is like this, then i just have to accept it.
thank you for everything. be happy =]
the problem is, even if you know and understand and accept the idea that ppl come and go, it's still heartbreaking when it happens.
this is to someone who was practically my life. we were so close i thought we'd stay friends forever. laughing when we're old, thinking abt the younger days. not meeting for a few years but still can converse as if we see each other every day. etc.
how naive i am. i guess things change. if your concept of friendship is like this, then i just have to accept it.
thank you for everything. be happy =]
Friday, July 24, 2009
semi-charmed kinda life.
class started, moved into new house, still not done unpacking, slacking off in studies, problems with certain friends... its been a long three weeks.
and to think that a close friend would announce on facebook that she hates me and i'm a pig after deleting me from her list of friends.... utterly disappointing.
oh well. i tried fixing it. didn't work.
got myself a dream-catcher and it's greeeeen ^.^
my new room is fully furnished, yet still not a conducive-for-study environment.
no pics yet, cos sucky as it is, celcom broadband does not reach this area. goddamn ipoh.
maybe its an annual thing, cos in the same month every year i manage to get new ppl to hate me. haha.
still feeling a lil messed up abt life, and hopefully everything will fall into place soon =]
i miss selangor already.
and to think that a close friend would announce on facebook that she hates me and i'm a pig after deleting me from her list of friends.... utterly disappointing.
oh well. i tried fixing it. didn't work.
got myself a dream-catcher and it's greeeeen ^.^
my new room is fully furnished, yet still not a conducive-for-study environment.
no pics yet, cos sucky as it is, celcom broadband does not reach this area. goddamn ipoh.
maybe its an annual thing, cos in the same month every year i manage to get new ppl to hate me. haha.
still feeling a lil messed up abt life, and hopefully everything will fall into place soon =]
i miss selangor already.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
happyness
few more days to ipoh. hmmm... went to this wedding. quite a grand one, makes you wanna get married quick. but when you think again... marriage..... erm.... overrated lah.
also, cheer 2009. crowd was just like every year. fun la. but very noisy. not my kinda thing.calyx got the best dress award, runners up for best make up. and third place overall. congrats!
but i didnt see any teachers from CHS. so sad. luckily wei zhe, kahjun, emilia and hui jing were there too, if not i would've felt really out of place!
last but not least. happy one year anniversary sayang. i can't believe you can put up with me for one whole year ^.^
i love you =]
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